Me Myself and I

Had to take Ron to urgent care this morning.  He woke up with a lot of blood in his urine so I suspected a UTI...was right.  Got him started on an antibiotic and then hightailed it to work.  I've got to get myself back in a routine.

I picked Mike up yesterday and brought him over to our house.  He hadn't been out of his house in 2 weeks and I thought he needed a change of scenery.  He ate lunch with us and talked to Ron and was ready to go back home after a couple of hours.  He is still agreeable to do whatever the doctor tells him.  I sure hope that attitude continues.  We bragged on him for being a responsible man.  

I made Mike some salmon patties to take home (one of his favorites) and fixed him a spice cake which he also loves.  I'd do anything in this world for my brother and I just want him to feel loved and safe.  I'm doing the best I can.

Butch is supposed to be stepping up to help him but he is inconsistent.  Mike has been waiting all day for him to come and go to the store for him.  Mike just called and asked if he should drive himself to the store.  I said no that I'll come take care of it when I get off work.  Butch doesn't understand how anxious Mike gets and how you have to do what you say you are going to do.  He relies on routines and what he can expect next.

I've decided I must get rid of any expectations of have of others.  You can't count on other people so you need to just rely on yourself.  If I let go of my expectations I won't get angry or disappointed.  As long as I know that I'm doing the right thing I'm OK.