Saturday, April 21, 2018


Oh what a cutie patootie we have staying in our house.  I'll post pictures when I find my camera!

The puppy (Winnie Cooper) was great last night.  She slept all night with no crying or whimpering.  Amazingly adaptable.

My daughter hasn't met her new girl yet.  She had to go out of town this weekend so I'm sure she is just dying to get back home.  She's going to be instantly in love.  Nothing like puppy breath!

Ron is already having a ball with the pup.  They wrestled on the floor last night for about an hour and when she was completely wrung out we put her in her crate and that it was it for the rest of the night.  She was awake about 6 am and ready to eat and play!  

The good thing about this arrangement is that even if we get attached we will still see her anytime we like and will be available for dog sitting!  It's the best of both worlds and we don't have any of the expense!

Since my weight loss there have been several things I've struggled with a bit.  Every time I see my reflection I see a stranger.  My face has aged so much I don't recognize myself. Another issue is that my brain and body image haven't reconciled.  When I go shopping I always go to the larger sizes.  Seems I have to start with extra large and work my way down.  It just doesn't feel natural yet.  I would say the last 10 pounds brought the biggest changes.  It felt gradual until then and I seemed to adjust more easily.  Now I just feel like a stranger in my own body.  It's weird!  

I once lost a 100 pounds in a year.  It was the year after the twins were born.  I was so busy I hardly noticed it happening and when the weight was gone it was more of, "Oh there you are! I remember you"!  But the biggest difference between then and now is the skin.  When I was heavy I really didn't have any wrinkles.....they were well stretched out.  Now I'm a deflated balloon.  Nothing and I mean nothing bounces back!  Oh the advantages of maintaining your weight when you are young!   

But I wouldn't change a thing!  I am exactly who I was meant to be.

Friday, April 20, 2018

A Senior Moment

As if life wasn't complicated enough....we are picking up an 8 week old puppy this evening.  Now she isn't ours but will be my daughter's new puppy.  She will however be staying with us for an undetermined amount of time because Julie's elderly dog Lucy won't tolerate a puppy just yet.  We know Lucy's time is getting short so when this puppy became available Julie fell in love because she looks like her dog Chloe who passed away last year.  So what could I say?  Ron and I thought we were ready for another dog but I said why don't we keep the puppy for awhile and see if we REALLY want to go through dog ownership again. we are.  This should be interesting!

I told Ron if we ever get a dog we should  name it Alexa.  That would sure make life interesting.  Ron calls our Alexa by a dozen different names...the last one was Alisa.  Then he gets upset cause the thing won't answer him.  I think it is a hoot!

I went to the allergy clinic yesterday and am going to have allergy testing done.  I really don't think we will discover anything earth shattering to explain the chronic bronchitis but we will see.  Right now I'm just wheezing and coughing all the time but haven't had an infection in 3 months.  That's really good for me.  I'm trying to stay on top of it with the breathing treatments and two inhalers.  So far so good!

I actually feel good over all.  I haven't had to take any arthritis medicine for about 6 months.  I attribute it to the weight loss and I'm thrilled.  My A1C was 5.8, the lowest since I was diagnosed with diabetes so I'm thrilled with that as well.  I still have to take Metformin but who knows, maybe I'll be able to get off that soon as well.

I only have 5 more days of eye drops and then hopefully get fitted for my new prescription.  Glad this is almost behind me.

We scheduled Mike for a colonoscopy next Monday.  This should be an adventure.  He has to have only a liquid diet on Sunday and I know that will be a real trip.  The man loves to eat!  His cognitive issues have worsened but we think he can still live alone for now.  He's also had some incontinence issues every now and then and the gym where he loves to go called me and said they have noticed he is getting worse.  He had an "accident" there but seem unaware of it so they called.  When they talked to him he started crying and begged them not to "kick him out".  He said it was all he has.  Of course they reassured him that was not going to happen but he was so upset they felt they needed to call us.  I'm glad they did.  We were able to reassure him that all was well and that everyone has had an accident at one time or another in their lives.  We then bought him a backpack to put a change of clothes and personal hygiene items in so he can take it to the gym with him.  He was OK with that and thought I was a genius for thinking of it.

Today we had some safety rails installed in the condo.  He's stumbled around a few times and we wanted to take some extra precautions.  We put one outside by the door and an extra one in the bathroom.

My older brother is healing but experiencing some depression which the heart doctor said is common after open heart surgery.  Of course this had also worried Mike and he cries a lot when he talks about Butch.  I think everyone is looking at their own mortality.  Mike has every reason in the world to be fearful of losing family.  He understands he would be all alone if something were to happen to Ron or I especially.  That's why I'm trying so hard to take care of myself!

Well that's my update.  Not exciting but it's life!

Wednesday, March 28, 2018

Bye Bye cataracts

I am now a graduated member of the cataract club.  I had my second surgery this morning.  Everything went fine and I'm just taking it easy the rest of the day.  Today's surgery was on my good eye.  I lost all central vision in my right eye when I was 8 years old.  With both eyes open it doesn't even bother me but with the eye patch on my "good" eye I'm having quite a bit of trouble navigating.  So if this post is riddled with typos please forgive!  

Tomorrow I can remove the eye shield and then things will be back to normal.

Monday, March 26, 2018

I'm still here....

Well, a lot has been going on since I last posted.  My doctor seems to have given up or at least that's how it seemed to Ron and I when I saw him last.  He appears to have no idea what is making me sick.  He ordered allergy testing and said "I'll see you in 4 months."  So I've been doing 3 breathing treatments a day.  Using two inhalers twice a day. And just keeping on keeping on.  Fortunately I feel fine except for the wheezing and coughing.  I finally heard from the allergy clinic and I see them in April.

In the mean time I decided to get my cataracts removed since I was getting where it was dangerous for me to drive.  Ron of course still can't drive and so I had to do something.  I had one eye done 2 weeks ago and the other will be done Wednesday.  Talk about a cake walk!  It was sooooooo easy.  I had never had Valium before and I thought it wouldn't have any affect on me.  Wrong!  They could have removed a kidney and I wouldn't have cared.  That was the best two hour escape from all worries I've ever had!  Other than the eye drops schedule it has just been so easy.

We decided we will get Mike's eyes done in September.  He will have to come stay with us for 6 weeks because he wouldn't be able to manage the eye drops schedule.  We picked September so that there will be college football on then and that will keep him occupied.  It should be a trip for sure!  He's getting more helpless by the day.  Yesterday he couldn't unlock his condo door and absolutely lost it.  I had to talk him down enough to tell him what to do. his door has two locks, the deadbolt and the door knob.  He was getting one opened while locking the other.  Because of his total panic he couldn't figure it out.  So today we went over and changed the doorknob with one without a lock.  Now he only has to use the deadbolt.

Mike can't keep his condo clean anymore.  He doesn't wipe off counters or sweep the floor like he used to do so we are going over twice a week and cleaning for him.  I have to be sneaky about it and have Ron take him somewhere then I slip in a clean up.  He doesn't even notice!  But if he sees me cleaning he gets really aggressive and defensive.

My older brother had open heart surgery two weeks ago today.  He's in a rehab hospital now.  That really shook Mike up and we kept it from him until we know  Butch was out of surgery and could talk to Mike on the phone.  We took Mike to see him a couple of times and it was the first time I'd seen Butch in a year.  I've been too scared to contact them after the ordeal we went through over the house.  But the visit was fine and he is recovering well.  

Ron and I reached our weight loss goals!  Ron is a slender handsome devil! He lost over 60 pounds and I still can't believe I achieved my own goal.  I have lost 95 pounds from my very highest weight before my hip replacement.  I'm actually smaller than my daughters now which I thought I'd never be.  I'm between a size 9 and 10.  I had to purchase a completely new summer wardrobe.  What a terrible problem to have......ha ha. It took us 2 1/2 years but hey I wasn't doing anything anyway!  I had the time!

I'm still hanging out with my favorite two year-old!  She came over while her parents went out and Ron and I had so  much fun with her.  We played hide and go seek in the back yard and that was a hoot.  She thinks if she covers her eyes we can't see her.  Two year old logic!  She has been so good for our diet.  Every time we have her we lose 2 pounds!  It's been a long long time since I chased a little one.

Well, that's about all I have.  Just going along taking each day as it comes.  Thursday I will have two good eyeballs!  Hooray!

Tuesday, January 16, 2018

Saw the doctor today and he is still puzzled.  Can't figure out what is causing the bronchitis.  Nothing significant has shown up from the bronchoscopy but he said he was surprised at how much he cleaned out of my lungs.  I'm on another antibiotic, an addition to the albuterol and another steroid.  He wants to see me again in 4 weeks.  I'm disappointed but he said, "We will get to the bottom of this."  He also suggested we get our air vents cleaned.  So guess that is next on the list.
I purchased this dollhouse yesterday.  It was already put together so I get to decorate the inside.  Some of the porch railing is missing and so are the doors but I think I can get replacement parts.  I thought it might be something I can do with Piper when she gets older and then I'll give the dollhouse to her when it is finished.

It is very large........3 feet wide and over 3 feet tall.  I told Ron we either have to build on to our house or move just to accommodate the dollhouse.  I want to wallpaper the inside rooms and add electric lights.  I don't know if I have the necessary skills but I'll try!

Friday, January 12, 2018


I had the bronchoscopy Wednesday and it went smoothly.  I was awake but there was about 3 minutes that I can't really remember.  Weird kind of conscious sedation but it works.  It was the few minutes it took to pass the camera through my nose and down my throat that I have no memory of.  I was aware of everything else.  

The doctor showed me what he cleaned out of my lungs but it didn't look shocking or anything like what I cough up.  It was just white in color.  He told us he didn't see anything "scary" like cancer.  He didn't do a biopsy because he didn't see anything to biopsy.  Everything was sent to the pathologist.  Afterward I was told to expect to be coughing a lot and I didn't cough even once.  I felt fine. 

Thursday I didn't cough or wheeze when I got up but by night time I was wheezing pretty bad and coughing.  Today I haven't coughed much or wheezed.  My doctor called me today and said he was ordering another antibiotic.  He said he didn't find anything that would require IV antibiotics.  He found what I thought he said was oily bacteria.... or at least some kind of bacteria.  He is still waiting for additional reports.  I take the antibiotic 7 days and go see him again on the 16th.

So my hopes that they would just identify something and then give me the cure are kind of deflated.  I'm not sure where we go from here.

Saturday, January 6, 2018


I saw the doctor the last Monday after running a fever and having chills on Sunday night.  He just looked puzzled and told me he can't give me anymore oral antibiotics as an outpatient.  He then ordered the bronchoscopy for yesterday but it was canceled because my doctor got sick.  Now it is scheduled for next Wednesday.  He will also be doing a lung washing.  Then it goes to pathology and he won't get the results for two weeks.  In the meantime I'm still running a temp of about 102.  I'm now taking Tylenol every 6 hours just to keep from running a temp.

So that's where I stand with all this.  Tomorrow my daughters are coming over to learn how to prepare Mike's meals.  Just in case I'm not up to it next week.  

Yesterday Ron and I went to a little town just South of us where a new business has opened.  It is called Peaceful Portions.  They are a meal delivery service and specialize in healthy meals.  They even calculate the Weight Watcher Points on all their meals.  When I was reading their website I noticed that they accommodate special diets.  Soooo I went there to see if they could accommodate Mike's dietary needs and they said YES!  They will prepare 5 days of meals AND deliver!  Almost too good to be true.  Now they haven't seen the list of his food allergies yet but I told them about his chicken phobia and they said they could substitute another meat.  So it sounds promising.  I brought home one of their breakfasts (the spinach tortilla egg wrap) and one dinner (eggplant parmesan) and they were both delicious.  I'm going to share my (no tomato) tomato sauce recipe with them.  Anyway it gives me an option to try.  And the pricing was very reasonable as well.  In fact it's cheaper than what I spend a week at the grocery store.

By the time we got back home from our outing I had fever and chills.  Not the best way to end a really good day!

Today I have kept my temp down by taking Tylenol every 6 hours.  I'm scared if I'm running a temp on Wednesday they might not do the procedure. I also went over to Mike's and cleaned his condo.  Then I came home and made about 8 servings of his spaghetti sauce to put in the freezer.  It's been a busy day!  I also sent 4 huge boxes of clothes to Goodwill.  They were all 5 sizes too big and I finally have enough confidence in myself to let them go.  I went from a size 22 to a 12.  I can't believe it!  I still have another 11 pounds to lose so I don't know where I'll end up on clothing size but I'm determined I'll never be a size 22 again.  I actually weight less than my daughters!  I gave my size 14 clothes to my daughters but they are both doing Weight Watchers now and I'm sure they will pass me very soon.

Oh Ron also saw the neurologist this week.  Ron tried his best to get him to say he could drive but's a state law.  Can't drive for 6 months following a seizure as long as you don't have another one.  The doctor did tell him (wish he hadn't) that his office doesn't report patients to the state but just let's them be on the honor system.  In other words drive at your own risk.  Now it will be twice as hard for me to keep Ron from behind the wheel!  He also changed Ron's seizure med to one that isn't supposed to cause agitation.  

So that's it in a nutshell!  We are still plodding along!  I thank everyone for their insight and best wishes.  It really helps keep the spirits up!  So thank you!