Sunday, July 7, 2019

I need order!

So much going on I can't keep up!  Mike was scheduled to have the pacemaker put in tomorrow but it was canceled by the doctor on Tuesday but we didn't know about it until Friday.  Confused?  Just a tad!

Our bedroom carpet was ruined by a backed up drain.  We are still in limbo about that.  Have to move all the furniture out of our bedroom and store it while the flooring is tended to.  We've had fans on the carpet but it is still damp because of the padding underneath.  

I'm one of those people who has to have order to function.  Sounds funny coming from me since for the most part my whole life is chaos.  But I must have order in my surroundings to compensate for all the other things in my life of which I have no control.  (Now that makes a little more sense I think)  

So this upheaval of furniture and flooring is a REALLY big deal for me.  I have to have a place for everything so that I don't start feeling overwhelmed.  Unfortunately we do not have a garage or this would be much less disrupting.  I think I'm going to look into renting one of those storage pods they drop on your driveway.  We can put everything in it and leave my house intact so I don't lose my flipping mind.  I know everyone around me would be happy!  All of this has put me in a purging mood again.  I'm ready to get rid of excess furniture and anything else I haven't used in the past two years.  I go through these spells every time I feel like my life is out of control.  (Which occurs quite regularly) 
At these times I organize everything I can get my hands on.  It just makes me feel peaceful.  Anyone else a little compulsive or what strategies do you use for coping?

I saw the infectious disease doctor Tuesday.  He didn't see anything he thought required treating.  I told him I'm actually getting better but I didn't tell him I'm taking cbd oil.  I'm playing "Don't ask, don't tell."  I don't know why I'm hesitant to say anything I guess I'm afraid they won't like my "self treating" but hey, I was desperate.

2 comments:

Olga said...

I know exactly what you mean about the need for order and working out anxiety through a good purge.

Deb said...

I'm feeling it. I'm in the middle of the same kind of situation, not the same cause but oh boy do I need energy to deal with the mess piled in our guest bedroom. Hang in there. It will work its way out, and maybe purging will help. Less stuff to take care of is never a bad thing.

Hugs from Canada
Deb