I've been a little under the weather for a few days. I'm getting my blood sugar under control but I'm having a few side effects from the blood pressure medication. I'm confident I'll get everything worked out soon. I was up all night (woke up at 1am sick as a dog) and didn't go back to sleep until 8:00 am. That is exhausting! I have to go back to the clinic on the 6th of Oct. for another blood test.

Ron is having episodes of what he calls clostraphobia. I wonder if he is having anxiety or panic attacks. All of a sudden he just has to jump up and go outside. I asked him to call his doctor today because I thought they might be able to give him something to help. I don't know if he will or not.

This 6 month wait to his next appointment may be stressful. Dr. D. told him that if the cancer is going to come back it probably won't take long. He was worried that if the tumor had invaded the blood vein(which he scraped but doesn't know if it had already invaded) then the cancer will probably return in his liver. I know that is not a good scenario. A friend of mine had liver cancer and lived about 16 weeks after diagnosis. It was not an easy 16 weeks either. Too much information is not helping me get my anxiety under control. Ron still doesn't talk about what he is thinking. We are definitely strained around each other.

Well, the bottom line is that all the anxiety or worry in the world won't change anything. We've just got to find a way to move on in the meantime.