Friday, July 23, 2021

Forgot what normal feels like.

I recently lost my primary care physician.  She left and the search for a new doctor began.  I wanted to find another female physician but settled on a nurse practitioner.  I saw her July 2nd and really liked her.  We went over medical history and but then a brief exam mainly consisting of listening to me breathe.  I warned her that I would sound horrible and she would either think I had pneumonia or worse.  So she listened and agreed I sounded awful.  Then she talked about her "health goal" for me.  She said she wanted to get me feeling at least 75% better.  She also said she didn't want to step on any toes (referring to my pulminologist) but wanted to add another inhaler to my list of meds.  I started the new inhaler and within 2 days my lungs were completely clear.  The first time in 6 1/2 years. It has been miraculous to me and has made me question why my lung doctor has never tried to add anything or why he just accepted the condition as (my new normal).  I forgot what good felt like.    I think I need to stop just accepting what doctors say and start advocating for myself.