Tuesday, December 20, 2011

It Continues

We are still fighting demons.  Mike started the suicide talk again last night.  Only this time he called the suicide hot line and told them he was going to overdose on his pills.  They told him to flush all his pills down the toilet and so he did.  Afterwards he called me and told me what he had done.  I was so frustrated.  One or two of his prescriptions alone are $1,000 each.  Rough estimate he flushed about $4,000 dollars worth of medications down the toilet.  Because they are controlled substances we are having difficulty getting any medication.  Ron is dealing with the medicine and I'm trying to get hold of the mental health service here in Norman.

Last night Mike was ready to go to a nursing home, today he is fighting and saying no.  When he gets scared he can then escalate to psychotic and aggressive.  I'm just walking a tight rope trying to figure out what to do.

Mike has correlated a pattern to his suicide thoughts.  He thinks it is every other day.  He kept saying things like "consecutive" and just rambling mumbo jumbo and irrational thoughts.  I'm so frustrated.

I'm going to seek a therapist for myself.  I need someone to talk to about my own feelings.  I have suppressed everything but I need to talk to someone.


Olga said...

I wish I had adequate words of comfort or some wisdom to impart. I do cheer on efforts to get your own therapist and wish you the best.

Betty said...

I can understand how frustrated you are. It's probably a good idea for you to see a therapist, just to have someone who is objective listening. He/she might even have some good advice for you.

Muffy's Marks said...

I feel so bad for you and the situation you're in. I hope and pray things work out for you

Arkansas Patti said...

Betty said it rather well. An opinion from an uninvolved person is often clarifying.
Mike really needs to be in a professional, controled setting. Hope you can find a place that offers that. He won't be 100% happy but he isn't now and at least there,he will be safe.