Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Sleepless in Oklahoma

Have you ever had one of those nights where no matter what you do you can't turn off your brain?  I think I got about 4 hours of sleep last night because for the first 4 hours my mind was on overload.  I think I replayed my entire 60 years backwards and didn't leave out a single moment.  I wouldn't have minded so much if I could have just skipped the bad stuff.....the regrets and the what ifs.  Not that I have a huge amount of regrets (not huge but definitely more than I want to relive in one night) but I think it is the what ifs that really get me in a tizz because they are so subjective.  Nobody knows whether the what ifs would have resulted in happy endings or just more regrets.
I don't like to run for pills and rarely take aspirin but I gave in about 1:00 and took the only thing I could find in the house, one lonely Sominex (for safe and restful sleep, sleep, sleep) Yea, I don't take pills I just memorize the commercials.  I even tried singing the jingle to myself for awhile hoping that would induce sleep but nope. Then I switched to Ma Ma Cass Elliot's song, "Dream a little dream" which led to me thinking about choking on a sandwich and afraid to eat anything harder than a soft boiled egg.  Oh how the mind wanders!

So I'm going to have to get through this day with less than 4 hours of sleep and hey I'm doing good to make it on eight!  Since my internal clock is set for 4:15 a.m. it didn't give me enough time to recover this morning.  It's going to be a very long day!


Betty said...

You can sing "Dream a Little Dream" all you want, without fear. According to, Mama Cass had a heart attack. There was an uneaten sandwich and a glass of milk on her bedside table. You're welcome.

oklhdan said...

Betty, I knew that was a false report about Ma Ma Cass but I have always had a fear of choking alone. I choked once on a piece of meat and had I not been with a friend at the time I guess it would have killed me. Ever since I've had a real phobia about eating alone. Figures!

Linda said...

Hope your day goes better than you expect.

Sleep is one thing I monitor very closely. I must have it. It is not an option.

kenju said...

I read a quote from Wayne Dyer on Facebook today about not reliving your regrets in life - and giving yourself forgiveness for them. Maybe if you do that you'll sleep tonight.

Arkansas Patti said...

Hate those wide eyed nights. The good thing about retirement though is I don't have to go anywhere the next day and can nap at will so I just take advantage and read.
I don't do "what ifs" much for like you said, the different path taken might have produced even worse results.
It is what it is.
Sleep well tonight, you will be ready.