Thursday, September 19, 2013

Boo Hoo

Ron didn't hear anything about the new job yesterday so I have my fingers crossed he will hear something today.

I've been in somewhat of a slump lately.  I think it is mainly a result of chronic pain.  I have wrestled with rheumatoid arthritis since the age of 14.  I was lucky because I was in remission a good deal of the time growing up with only occasional flares.  These days I only have brief if any remission at all.  I guess it is the price I pay for the early years.  New drugs have helped prevent severe joint damage and I've only had 3 surgeries due to my RA.  One ankle fusion at the age of 28 and then some surgeries on my hands about 10 years ago.  

What has me in a slump is my inability to sleep through the night.  I'm awakened by pain several times during the night and finding a comfortable position is almost impossible.  I don't like to complain because there are so many people dealing with much worse pain than mine.  But it does wear on you............Having a job that requires me to sit for long periods of time is the worse thing....I get so stiff I can hardly walk and it increases the pain in my hips.  I'm so ready to retire.  Chronic pain is hard for others to understand.


kenju said...

Indeed it is. My mom had bad arthritis pain, and I know how she suffered.

I've been fighting a bone spur and tendonitis for a year now, and the almost constant pain is really getting to me.

Hope you will get to sleep through the night soon.

Olga said...

Pain is insidious and often invisible. I realize that pain was a constant companion for Mike in past couple of years and yet it was hard sometimes not to resent it because it affected MY activities. But I forgive myself for that and I really try not to judge others because you never know what it feels like to walk in their skins.

Deb said...

I'm sorry to hear you're dealing with so much discomfort and pain. It really becomes a drag on your energy, especially when you can't get a good night's rest.

Be kind to yourself, and I'm praying hard that Ron gets the new job.

Hugs from Canada

I'm the mom said...

I too suffer some with the dreaded RA. I started taking Baxyl a few years ago and I'm like a new person.

yes its a bit pricey, but so worth it.